Consider it All Joy
I’m no longer so fascinated by the destination.
There is something so special about going through things, especially with someone else. I am about to embark on a new venture with help from friends, and I know whatever the end result will be, it will be great. But oddly enough, I am more excited about the mini milestones, the tears, the conversations, the late nights, and the pushing through.
One of the reasons why I love being married is because I get to go through life with my husband. I still remember the day when he quit his job in order to date me. (I know, super romantic.) And afterwards, what it seemed like a never ending of rotating jobs (not so romantic). I remember looking forward to the repetitive nights of picking him up from work, because of the conversations in between. Then fast-forward to our first apartment in a new city, all in time for marriage; I seriously felt like it was a setup from God. And of course, the inevitable disappointments, the promotions, the cooking (or lack thereof), and the catching up sessions in our living room.
And now, pursuing our dreams together.
When I think about it, I wouldn’t take any experience back, even the tough times. There was a level of intimacy that was being built between us, that wouldn’t have developed otherwise. I consider it all joy.
I’ve learned so much about Jeremy and myself through these experiences. For example, I have come to realize how amazing my husband is. Don’t get me wrong, I always thought he was great, it’s just some things are birthed out of you when you go through things; It’s honestly the best to witness. As we get to know each other more, and find our rhythm, I see that we work pretty well together.
I’m no longer so focused on what God can give me.
One of my many favorite things about my relationship with God is hearing from Him. First of all, I think it’s just the coolest thing that I get to have a relationship with God. That I have the opportunity to talk to Him, He listens, and vice versa. It’s stinking amazing! I remember when I first started dating Jeremy, God told me to stay with him when I was contemplating leaving. Or when I was comfortable at a church I was attending for a few years and He told me to leave. And when I wanted to quit my job because the transition was super tough, but He told me to keep pressing on. Or when He told me to start blogging …
When I think about it, I don’t ever regret listening to God and stepping out. Was it hard? Absolutely! Does it get easier? Not necessarily ... but, in those moments of resistance there was a level of intimacy that was being built between us, that wouldn’t have developed otherwise. I consider it all joy.
I learned through these experiences who God is, that He truly is who He says He is. That He is faithful and to be trusted. That He is my provider and my peace. He is my helper and my deliverer when times are tough. In other words, He is awesome! And I have come to learn, when I listen, surrender, and do my part, we work pretty darn well together.
James 1:2-4 The Message (MSG)
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
Psalm 119:10 &14 The Message (MSG)
I’m single minded in pursuit of you. Don’t let me miss the road signs you have posted. I delight far more in what you tell me about living than in gathering a pile of riches.